Only A Wish A Way

sometimes you reach what's real,

just by making-believe .

unafraid, unashamed,

there is joy to be claimed in this world.

and you might even wind up being glad to be you.

each happy ending is a brand new beginning,

forever might even begin today.

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Drug Ballad

i’m sick of this counting game,

a different pill for every problem .

a new pill for everyday.

count out your issues in convenient little bottles labled with a purpose.

one pill for the pain .

two pills to make me sane.

a pill for the sleep.

these pills have got me knee deep.

a bottle of pills to help us write out our wills .

pills, pills, pills.

all these pills are startin' to give me the chills .

one pill for the lies.

two pills to help me open my eyes .

a pill to counteract the pills.

these pills are startin' up unpayable bills.

7 pills a day.

49 pills a week .

210 pills a month .

now i can hardly breathe.

so remember to take your pills every day!

then we can go out and play.

we take our pills by the bulk.

all these pills so that i will no longer sulk.

do not crush or chew,

swallow whole.

take with food,

do not take with alcohol .

may cause drowsiness.

a pill to make you smile.

a pill to make you breathe .

a pill to make you numb .

and another to put your mind at ease.

count out all your problems into boxes marked by days.

take a pill for every issue and let it all fade away .

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He Said, She Said

whazzzaaaap bitches & hoes!

i'm backbackback, yo.

thailand was pretty oh-kay,

shopping wasn't as awesome as i thought it would be .

oh wellz,

Christmas this year didn't feel quite like Christmas.

(although i spent it with my family!)

finally got to catch up with Tessa after like,

36505793866 years .

andandand,

Ian-The-Total-Genius ripped out my right earring from my ear .

(it bled, so now i can't put the stud back in)

the funny thing is,

he gave me earrings for Christmas!

on Boxing Day,

Clare's family invited me over for lunch .

so i went over with flowers, chocolate & perfume for her mom.

her family is so entertaining, really.

then headed to Sean's place,

slept awhile then ate at the coffee shop with him and Zac .

met Clare (again!) in town,

went to get a present.

had to cab back to YCK for no fucking reason,

and Clare was like in her 'omg' mood because of me.

haha sorry for all the trouble, babe (long story).

this morning,

i went over to Tanah Merah to meet Jerome

for his birthday lunch thingywingy .

hung out at his crib while waiting for the rest to come,

then bus-ed to Pizza Hut (yeah he held it at his workplace, gah).

Tessa's (ex)boyfriend was being a total ass towards her.

after lunch,

bus-ed back to Jerome's place to watch a mooovie .

blahblah ,

everyone left except me .

so Jerome and i just walked around and talked cock.

turns out that Colin, who is Tessa's (ex)boyfriend,

was cheating on her .

so she broke up with him today.

what a motherfucker.

i reallyreallyreally wanted to like beat him up with my bare hands.

but i thought about it,

'he-llo Audrey in case you haven't noticed,

the dude is like twice your size. '

so i didn't do anything .

#1

#2 Bunny Doughnuts

#3 Pretty Washroooom

#4 Four-Faced-Buddha(?)

#5 Super Yummy Thai Iced Tea

(i asked Sonya for the recipe)

#6 Ultra Yummy Thai Food

#7

#8 I Love This Bunny

--

she said,

"why can't we make up like the last time?

i'm just afraid to hear you say 'go' ."

he said,

"baby i'm sorry, but i think it's time we let go."

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Merry Chrizmaz In Advance

i'm flying to Bangkok tmr morning

(at like, 7a.m? yes, that early)

yay, i'm so excited.

and and and i'll be back on Christmas eve,

probably touch down around noon.

the next time i'll be able to come online to blog

will be after Christmas i think .

so here's to everyone who reads my mundane-to-the-maximum blog :

A Very Merry Christmas To You All

and i hope you guys have an awesome year ahead.

Hugs & Kisses,

Me.

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If I Was Beautiful,

Would You Date Me On The Regular?

HELLO EVERYONE,

I'M FREAKISHLY HAPPY AND YEAH,

MY LIFE IS PURRR-FECTO RIGHT NOW!

so dont ask whazzzap with me (please?).

oookay whatever.

last night was totally fun,

it really took my mind off everything .

Jason accidentally broke the tiara Adrian gave me,

even before i got to wear it .
i think he was just jealous no one gave him a tiara .

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Make Your Move

OHMYGOD

I AM SO PISSED OFF NOW.

I WOKE UP AT LIKE 12,

AND WENT TO TAKE A SHOWER.

AFTER THAT ONE OF MY EXTENSIONS DROPPED

OFF WHILE I WAS TOWEL-DRYING MY HAIR.

NOT ONLY THAT OKAY?

I CANT BELIEVE IT.

YOU ARE SUCH A MOTHERFUCKER.

PROBABLY THE GRAND MOTHERFUCKER

OF ALL MOTHERFUCKERS.

I GAVE YOU A SECOND CHANCE AND

YOU PROMISED ME ALL KINDS OF THINGS.

NOW, THIS?

I HOPE YOU'RE READING THIS,

WHEREVER YOU ARE.

I'VE HAD ENOUGH OF YOUR BULLSHIT/EMPTY PROMISES.
YEAH I' M SURE YOU'RE MISSING ME

OH-SO-FUCKING-MUCH .

LETS JUST BREAK UP,

AGAIN .

(SCREAMS)

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Let It Enfold You

ch-ch-check it out bitches and hoes!

i've got extensions (:

had lunch with Andy and Ian in town today,

then Andy had to go so Ian and i went Chrizmaz shopping .
met Clare and walked around,

visited Alex in Paragon (he works at X Square[?])

i wanted to get my dad a tie there so

Alex the Great managed to gimme a discount

:D

then we headed to cine and got extensions outside,

at this flea market place .

(I got black & pink, Clare got red)

me vellivelli happy.

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Happy Full Moon Baby Shane!

Little Shane is my cousin's kid,

and he is sooo adorable (:

so yeah,

it's been a month since he was born .

and there was like a party thrown for him.

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Say Goodbye

#1 Kim's Pretty Christmas Tree

#2 Don't Ask

#3

#4 Kim's Pig, Which I Like Alot

#5 Bla & Stef

#6 Michelle

#7 Food! Food!

#8 Monster

#9 Kim Has A Room For Keeping Big (Expensive) Fish

#10 Watching Telly, Please Don't Kachow
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class party of the year was on wednesday!

i really have to say a huge thank you to all the

class committee members for not only organising the party,

but also for tahan-ing my rubbish this year .

(i was class Vice-Chairperson last year,

this year i'm nothing. gee, i wonder why.)

it was held at Kim's place,

and it was soo much better than expected!

it was Sean's 18th that day too

:D

big time fun baby.

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"cause i dont think it'll be good for anyone of us if we still stay together.

it's like you're losing your feelings for me and i'm getting tired .

yeah so i guess we'll just go our seperate ways yeah.

yeah hope you'll enjoy the christmas present.

take care of yourself okay?"

I'M WORTH ONE FUCKING TEXT MESSAGE.

IF ANY OF YOU ARE HOPING SOME BOY'S

GONNA COME ALONG AND SWEEP YOU OFF YOUR FEET,

GIRL,

YOU BETTER RUN THE FUCKING FASTEST YOU CAN.

(IN THE OPPOSITE DIRECTION)

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go if you wanna go,

stay if you wanna know the way through the mess we've made,

and lie in the bed you know.

or you could go.

for all the love we've made,

just one thing stays the same .

the lamp gets dusty,

the pipes get rusty .

and your love for me was never quite there.

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Santa, I've Been An Awfully Good Girl

Hello Mr Santa Claus,

this is Audrey here!

I'd like all these things for Christmas.

#1 Alexander McQueen
Purple Silk Duchesse High Collared Mini Dress

#2 Vera Wang

Shantung Asymmetric Dress

#3 Christian Louboutin
Goya Suede Ankle Boots

#4 Louis Vuitton
Noe in Damier Azur Canvas

Thank you dear Santa (:
Love,
Me.
--

so tell me,
who needs boys now?

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CrushCrushCrush

went shopping with Sean yesterday

for clothes to wear this saturday for his cousin's wedding.

i swear,

if i had a choice,

i would never shop with him ever again.

he's so indecisive and and and,

he didn't even know what he wanted!

halfway his cousin, Zac and friend, Joey

(let's call them Angsty & Fiesty) joined and left us .

despite the fact that it was raining and i was tired,

i still had fun (:

it was Ed's 19th yesterday too!

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9 months,

and it all comes down to this :

'a short break' and many dates ahead .
i'll miss you .

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The Boys Of Summer Have Gone Home

i'm really lazy to tell ya'll exactly what i did over the weekend.

so the main points:

Aubrey's fucking awesome party, manicure, work, granny's birthday, family.

(oh and i meant my dead granny)

i dont have many pictures with me right now.

gymed todayyesterday.

(it's 1a.m on tuesday now)

whatever,

i feel so fucked up right now .

oh fuck,

i should just go.

say hello to my work (data entry)

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